My Blog

Just want to share my story on trying to get my driver’s license in this part of the earth.Just made me think how easy it is to get a license in the Phils but here you have to go through this nerve wrecking experience.I know how to drive (basta drive lang) but I am not a good driver my dad knows that.Once we almost hit a post because I turned so badly. Nerbyosa pa ako. It runs in the blood (lolz) which neutralized by my dad’s blood (hehe, i know people close to us know what I mean). Back home I don’t feel the “need” to drive, bakit pa? pwede naman mag tricycle or mag bus, so di na ako nag practice, I stopped bugging Dad to let me drive once in a while.Dito kahirap ng walang sasakyan so I have no choice but to learn, and need to pass the ROAD TEST, I know those who already have their license have forgotten how scared they were when they first did the test. As I have said I am so bad in my turns so I had 14 hours of lessons focusing mostly on my turns and change lanes (That’s a lot).It’s worth it because I did learn and didn’t get any deductions on my turns at the test.

Two days before the test I called my instructor to cancel kasi nga i was so nervous but he said I’m doing well and He has confidence that I can do it.His wife also told me that if I failed it’s not the end of the world and the examiner won’t eat me if I will do wrong. (lolz)

So comes road test day, i felt a bit relax when I woke up, I had a good night sleep, it’s just a matter of mind conditioning and prayer. So we are now in the testing office, My name was called, Thank God my examiner looks so nice, he said with a smile, how are you? I said Never been this nervous in my entire life, he laughed and he said there’s nothing to be nervous of, it’s just a test..That relaxed me more; my friends’ stories scared me already because they said examiners are so intimidating, well, maybe I’m just blessed that day, blessed with nice weather and nice examiner.Not so blessed though, continue reading

So he checked my lights it was good, I pulled out from the parking lot, drove for at least 10 minutes without seeing him wrote anything.I was like wow I’m doing good.Comes my first mistake, it’s just petty but it’s 5 points deduction, I forgot to cancel my right signal after the turn, being a perfectionist crept in, that petty mistake bothered me, ayun na nagsusulat na.  I am one of those people pa naman that mess up things when under pressure and scrutiny. Another mistake followed, I went straight to 2^nd lane on my right turn miscalculating the parked vehicle ahead, he said later in the office that it was more than 30 feet from the curb, at that time though realizing that was a mistake I went back to first lane then go back to 2^nd lane again but still I got 15 points deduction (to those who don’t know you are only allowed 50 points deductions, more than that you failed), that bothered me more, I hit a curb, another 10 points, then he gave another 5 points deduction for waiting too long to go left turn in an intersection that has no lights, he said later that I was causing traffic. Then time to do my parallel parking, I made it on my first try,  (u are allowed 3 tries in 5 minutes whichever comes first as long as u won’t hit the curb or pole) i got 5 points deduction though because I already signaled to go but my gear was still on Park, whew dumb mistakes.  After that i made this mistake that i will never forget, un ang nagpabagsak sakin big time..The examiner said ur PP is good let’s go back to the office now (we are already at the front of the testing office that time, Parallel Parking is the last one in the test), so i was already at the end of the test when i made this mistake, too bad.. I began rolling out from the parking lot without shoulder checking, I checked the mirror though, I didn’t see that car coming and he used his break on me, that’s automatic failed.. too sad.. even though I have a passing points of 50(should be 40 without that huge mistake) that major mistake is 10 points deduction but he used his break which failed me automatically. He explained to me why I failed then gave the paper indicating the mistakes I made, mapalaminate nga..hehe.. He said come back in two weeks let’s try again, sana nga cya ulit examiner ko.So that was it.. frustrating eh?Mas madal cgurong tanggapin kung 100+  ang mali ko, I was too close but I blew it up in the end.Oh well, sabi nga di pa katapusan ng mundo, kaso mag aabsent na naman ako sa work, magbabayad na naman, and who knows anong mga mali na naman ang makita nila at magawa ko, and who knows maybe next time my parallel parking will be bad.. That’s what bothering me now. **Sigh

You will all know na naman on my next try…

Ok .. it’s my 2^nd year here in this foreign land but still I am not fully adjusted.  I know it takes a while.  I am still waiting for my hubby to come out here.  I hope soon.

This week we will have a Soul Winner’s Boot Camp by Bro Matt Maddix, I am looking forward for it, for sure it would be an awesome and exceptional experience for us.  Our music team will be singing at two services (great, but we need to have the energy and anointing to keep up with reverend, not just to keep up though but to be a blessing to everybody).  Need prayers.

This week’s weather is supposed to be nice, hope weather forecasts are accurate this time, we need it for the boot camp –not to mention I need it for my road test..  Did I say road test? Whew! Just the thought of it freaks me.

Road test.  There are so many road test stories at bay.  Some are funny, some are scary.  I don’t know what will be mine after the test.  Well, need to try, if I failed then try again, then try again.. then trryyy again  (how many try agains? Parang contest sa tansan puro try again) my co-worker knows somebody that failed eleven times in the road test… Not me please that would be too much… 

My sinus allergy finally subsided this week, hoping it won’t come back in the winter, It’s a torture specially at night.. I got this dark circles under my eyes because I can hardly sleep ( I know my eyes are dark, i’ts darker now J I look like a Dracula, **sigh** )

Work, is still the same, no slow days : paper works (that includes paper cuts), meetings, teleconferencing,  and paper works again… J  Thank God for the Job.. di pwedeng magreklamo buti nga may trabaho.

So much for these random thoughts , just trying to relax my mind… Goodness! I don’t want to be a scared mouse on my road test.. TABANG!!!!!!

Not permanently though.. lolz.

Wrong timing talaga.. kainis…

Our church ensemble been practicing this nice but complicated song for the family camp in Morris, Manitoba.  We will be doing that song this Wednesday, i don’t know if i could sing on Wednesday though.

Then kanina may meeting kami sa  dept. namin, this chipmunk voice was so embarrassing.  When it was my turn to talk (our dept. manager made it a point that everybody will make a report every meeting) i said, whatever i want to report today i will just email it to you.. everybody looked at me as if they just heard somebody talked from Mars…lolz.. and he was like, somebody’s not feeling well today.. with a smile..then praised my clean desk…wehhhh… panghipos pud lagi mo sa inyong desk kay nagatour na si manang pag wala na ta…
Ok balik sa topic…I’m always like this every time magchange ang weather i got sore throat then i’ll lost my voice…i remember kadtong nag uli ko 1 month pud ko walay tingog…. that’s why my voice was blahhh on my wedding day…lisod diay maamang.. lolz…

Our voice is really important…for me i need my singing voice for church and i need my talking voice at work.  My job involves phone calls.  It’s either me bugging the branch heads or them calling me.  Or it could be a call from a pissed off vendor asking for money.  Today my voice mail is full i did not dare touch the phone.. Who would like to talk to a chipmunk, eh?  Hahay unta ok nako ugma…
Ok kadto ra.. saksak sinagol

So im back here in Winnipeg two months ago.. I stayed “home” for three months..It was so much fun. Home is where your heart is, ikanga.  Sobrang sulit ng vacation ko..Many things happened sa 3 months na un, parang ang bilis nga e, i get the chance to be with my relatives(dad’s side) on  christmas time and new year, so happy to celebrate christmas with my lola, christmas time with the church people was also a lot of fun,  chit chat with my aunties, movie marathon with some of my cuzins, lalo na with the tres marias, eat out with my family, going to spa and shopping with my mom,  gala with my friends and with my bebe, reunion with my HS classmates, visit Lipa, Tagaytay, be a kid ulit at Enchanted Kingdom and Star City and have my siblings got a taste of Winnipeg at Snow World (i hope i got the name right) and of course Our Wedding.  Too bad nga lang i can’t have everybody on my wedding day.  My family and Dennis know how i wanted to, dalawang reception na nga,  di na namin kakayanin kung gagawin pang tatlo..lolz…  Bawi na lang ako sa mga di ko nasabihan specially to my college friends at ibang mga taga church.

Well, With all those fun and memories, when it’s time to fly back, i was crying in the plane all the way to HK.  Naaawa na cguro ung ibang mga Pilipino  na nandon, they are trying to make me calm down, pero parang nahahawa na rin ang iba.  I can’t help it talaga. I’m so lucky kasi from HK-Vancouver wala akong katabi so i get to lie down kaya nakatulog ako almost the whole flight..  pag gising ko ang dami ng pagkain sa harap ko which si good kasi gutom ako sa kakaiyak,  two meals na ang dumaan na di ko nakain… i didn’t realize sobrang gutom ko na pala…ayun ubos..

My first two weeks here was not easy never a single day that i did’nt cry, mas malungkot yata kesa sa unang alis ko.  Syempre mas miss ko ngaun si hubby :(  Kahit sa work tumatakbo ako pa washroom para lang umiyak.   My boss was telling me,  pag nanalo daw cya ng Lotto 649 he will give me a ticket weekly hanggang sa makarating dito si Dennis.. lolz…mahilig din pumila sa lotto mga puti kala nyo…hehe..uwian weekly sounds fun.. pero patay ka naman sa pagod..

With God’s help im okay naman na now kahit nalulungkot pa rin, un lang naman talaga kalaban pag nag abroad, lungkot.  Pero makakayanan naman through prayers.. All i need to do is to be thankful sa lahat na ginawa Nya. God is always good.  His plans are always perfect.

Yesterday we had spring cleaning at church at nagkakatuwaan sa pagkuha ng pics.. i had a picture with this very cute puppy, she’s really teeny weeny, just a pound..she’s morgy’s dog…cute…nakakumot cya, giniginaw…  ( mingaw nako mga doggies nako.. snow, pipa and pipo ) mukha akong tomboy d2..just for fun…si josel kasi e… bagay ba?  lolz

Hmmm… back to normal..? me di pa im still here in the Phils, dakilang tambay, but im enjoying every day of my stay here.  Di ko pa alam when ulit makakauwi dito.

The wedding.  It was great, I enjoyed every moment of it.  I don’t mind the hitches, talagang di mawawala yun so i will not stress myself thinking about it.  Sino ba naman ang ayaw ng perfect wedding pero that would be impossible kaya on the wedding day di ko na inisip mga palpak, nag enjoy nalang kami ni dennis kaya tuloy ang dami naming crap pictures kasi kita ang ngala-ngala sa tawa..hehe… Well, I’m happy kasi it was nice naman, i want my dress, the cake, flowers, food, place and photography to be beautiful, yun lang main concern ko na nangyari naman.  At least sulit ang pagod at gastos..hehe. The weather is also very nice that day. Over all i am contented with the outcome.  What’s funny is how some commented on the place na medyo madilim daw.. di alam what is cozy and romantic, hehe… i made it dim,  kasi that’s what i like… i don’t like a fully lit room. well, It was not a super perfect wedding but for me it was very nice because it was the day that me and Dennis will begin a new life together.  It was a celebration of love and commitment.

Thank you sa lahat.. sa prayers, sa greetings, sa gifts.  It was my wish na complete ang Patts family on my wedding day pero i understand na medyo malalayo sila,  my mom’s siblings are in California, Canada at Manila.  Kaya tuloy tatlo lang ang nakasipot.  I am glad that the family on my Dad’s side kumpleto talaga pati mga batang maliliit.. It was like a reunion.  I am very happy for that.

Thank you to my Maid of Honor, for the help, my bride’s maid na kay gaganda..:) :). sa mga usherettes.. kahit baliktad ung position ng guys at girls.., hmmm, di naman masyadong halata, medyo naging jewish wedding lang naman…of course sa mga abay na mga lalaki thanks din. All the Principal sponsors, sobrang thank you.. to our parents. Kay God. Sa lahat na pumunta, thank you for making our day a very memorable one.

As of now we are enjoying our times together kasi after six months pa ulit kami magkikita, hopefully earlier.  Parang ayoko pang isipin na babalik ulit ako sa Canada but i have to para makapagsimula na.

Ciao, til next.

Been very busy and tired lately.. Trying to save every penny i could get from my two jobs.. para akong babaeng dalawa ang mukha now..(ano un?).. from the office deretso na ako sa store where im a cashier.. may baon na akong maong skirt, t-shirt and flat shoes pampalit sa business suit and high heels ko… In fairness kahit sobrang nakakapagod mag  cashier (take note walang packer dito, pagcashier ka packer ka din, package deal un, spoiled nga mga cashier satin e)  at the same time customer service rep , im enjoying myself in the store.. di ko namamalayan ang oras..sabi nga ng isang kasama ko..it seems u have lots of energy…I just miss the nature of work i had in the  phils.. para na akong mabubuwang sa office.. kaya ‘tong pagka-cashier is somewhat a breather na rin… usually 1 am na ako dumadating sa bahay.. un nga paggising ko sa umaga don ko ramdam na ramdam ang pagod..sobrang pagod..parang ayoko na bumangon..pero kelangan ulit magtrabaho.. its not everyday naman ung work ko sa store  2-3 times a week lang.. pero one day lang na di sakto ang tulog mo plus the physical work, sira na ang buong week.. maybe soon masasanay din ang system ko.. but i dont intend to this forever for the meantime lang… at baka ang naiipon ko mapunta lang din sa ospital.. Huh!

Ok just an update sorry kung medyo di cheerful tong entry ko..
Thanks for reading…

I was watching the Buzz at youtube and i am quoting what Gabby Concepcion said…

"ANG US IS VERY O KAHIT SAAN BASTA UMALIS KA NG PILIPINAS.. AKO IN MY
PART SA US, UNITED STATES IS VERY HUMBLING… DUN AKO NATUTONG WALANG
KANG ALALAY.. WALA KANG KASAMA.. IKAW ANG GAGAWA NG LAHAT.. WALANG
TUTULONG SAYO MALIBAN ANG SARILI MO.. DUN KO NAKITA NA SADSAD KA PERO
BABANGON KA DIN DAHIL SA SARILI MONG GAWA.. AYON MAPAG AARALAN MO
UN..MANGYAYARI LANG UN AT MARARAMDAMAN MO LANG UN PAG NAPADPAD KA
DUN…"

It is very true.. but it will help you become a better person.   Sure there’s a lot of struggles ,  the adjustments -new work, new people, new acquaintances. So hard,  lalo na sa work (entry-level ulit)..  that’s why i will be forever grateful to my family that’s helping me here.. I don’t know what it would be like without them. The "missing" part, for me, is my greatest struggle.. never thought i would be feeling this way.. It may sound corny pero dito ko yata naintindihan deeply ang "feeling of loneliness".  Through prayers I’m handling it well and I know i will be fine soon.

I dont know unsaon pagsugod.. random man gud ba..

(Wanna apologize to my readers that can’t understand Bisaya or Tagalog, this post is mostly Bisaya - my own tonque)

Bahala sa mo diha na di kasabot ha kay magbisaya sa ta, nanggahi na ni akong panga ug sige English sa office..Wala jud koy ka officemate na Pilipino..Pero this week overwhelmed ko kay naay staff sa among Auditor na Bisaya, sa wakas naa koy kaistorya for the mean time..unta dugay mahuman ang audit.

The past weeks or months (oi English man..) magcge ra ko isip sa Phils, as in I know now the meaning of homesickness, kana diay mingawon ka sa lugar tanan detalye maremember nimo.. bisan basurahan mahinumduman nimo…. mga places na wala kau nimo tagai ug pansin before maremember nimo.. sa kalingag sa akong isip usahay makatawa ko kalit.. hahay, grabe ning kamingaw makabuang..

o cge sample.. One time gihatod ko sa akong dakilang uyab pauli sa apartment namo sa Panabo that me and my friend Yen were sharing.. karon kay naa may dakong patay na ilaga sa dalan.. wahhh.. rats freak me out jud patay man ug buhi.. kaya ang nahitabo imbes lima na lang unta ka lakang abot na mi sa apartment, namalik oi ug ninglibot sa kinaluyaan..Nakatawa ko ani pagkahinumdum nako pero gilood pud ko sa ilaga..

Onother one.. habang nagalakaw ko from work paadto sa bus stop while naga snow (unsaon man ning la pa man ta driver’s license) naka remember ko sa mga tricycle back home. Didto bisan unsa kaduol hala sakay.. Then bigla naisip nako ang one incident na nakig-away ko driver kay ngano? hehehe.. kay nganong di ko ihatod sa jollibee(panabo) mismo nganong sa panadero ra (for some who dont know, atbang ra na oi ).. di jud mubaktas.. da tagam diri baktas, lay tricycle..

Kani, makalagot.. tagpila gani pa relax sa hair diha sa ato, 300php ra di ba? for my hair 500php. Halaka kay gusto na lagi ko paayos hair kay murag panget na kau, tawag ko sa saloon diri na kabalo ko na mostly Filipina or Filipino (u know what i mean) ang stylist.. so syempre question: Magkano po? "Depende sa length ng hair".. so i said lampas waist po.. ahhh.. we start at 180dollars kasi, so with your hair 450dollars.. wahhhhhhhhh.. …makakuyap..18,000php kaya na.. yaw na lang oi .. antos nalang ko ani akong buhok..

Hahay daghan pa sunod na pud ang uban..kay dili ko mahuman…

There’s no place like home jud. So guys start appreciating the things around you na.. Trivial things for me before naisip nako importante man diay.. Im glad din kay naa pud koy lessons na nakuha sa paglaroy-laroy sa akong isip.. :)

How are you dear friends? hope everybody’s doing fine.. ako? yah doing good .. pero feeling ko hindi ako masasanay sa lamig dito.  I miss my family & friends.. I miss u best ..wehhh.. yah i do.. :) 

When i was still in the Phils. i was not into friendster that much.. yah i do upload photos but i never update my profile and just visit my page for like once a week.  But now that im away from home i am now a so "friendster person".  Though people here were like saying that this is an "old school"- boring stuff, that i shoud make Facebook or Myspace, i said "no way, sino ba kakausapin ko sa facebook or myspace?  my friends are on friendster",  Even its kinda old for them its fun for me, I dont know about you guys.  Here i saw and able to talk to my long lost classmates from elementary, friends from highschool and college, at mga UPC from all over the phils and abroad,  i love that.. No offense to those who were using facebook and myspace but for me that’s so lame.. not because of the thing itself but because of the fact that all my friends, acquintances, family and relatives are on friendster and that’s the best part of it.

Oh well, so much for that.. Just trying to say that im enjoying this stuff more than ever…:)  Everything that keep me connected to you guys put smile on my face.. hastang kamingaw na jud nako.. i know masasanay din ako.. but for now the web helps me a lot :)  … maau nalang naa nakaimbento ani.. ;) 

Work here is not easy, weather is not perfect, mga tao di mo kalahi kaya i prefer sana to live in the philippines na lang.. Kung heiress lang ako ng mga Ayala - Zobel, i rather stay in my native land.. And i rather sing "Lupang Hinirang" than "OH Canada" mas maganda pa rin ang tunog ng National Anthem natin  :)  wahhh im getting homesick here..

Oh gotta go.. there’s nothing much on this post.. pero thanks and you, yah i said you, finished reading it still… :)  Leave ur footprints in the comment box,, yah ikaw na nagbabasa ngaun, leave a comment.. wanna know who you are.. :)  :)

I super hate goodbyes.. i don’t wanna cry.. i want to take things lightly and want everything to be casual..

I am leaving the Philippines tomorrow for Canada.. I don’t like the feeling.. Parang miss ko lahat.. I cried but not in front of my family and friends.. I called Dennis, sa kanya ko binuhos lahat.. crying really helps.. i feel better now.. Grabe, can’t define the emotion.  I have a strong personality but there still a vulnerable part of me.  I am not the emotional type pero sa ngaun im getting sooo emotional.. which i hate…

I know lilipas din ‘to.. pagbigyan nyo muna ang kadramahan ko…

Pls pray for my flight.. I need it…

Renda